I met with my Dr early this morning to go over the results of yesterday's ultrasound. Without going into a lengthy description of the details, the Dr pretty much reassured me that I'm in excellent health and that my body has already started the process of breaking down whatever is left in my uterus, which is little more than scar tissue at this point. Because of this she feels that I won't need any medical intervention; i.e. a D & C or internal medication to 'speed up' the process. She said the internal medication tends to bring on strong contractions, so I agreed to hold off on taking that. I should expect some cramping and bleeding within the next few days, with the entire process being overwith in a couple of weeks. She doesn't feel it's necessary to test anything because the pregnancy never really "took". She said many times women miscarry at this stage without even realizing they were pregnant. They simply have a heavier cycle than usual. It's a bit puzzling as to why I've gone this long without any bleeding or cramping...but that falls into the 'unanswered questions' column of things. If we choose to, we can try again after my next cycle.
I will say that while I will follow up with this Dr for a routine check-up in 2 weeks, after that I will request a new Dr. My regular OBGYN retired shortly after Savannah was born, so I had to find a new one. I only met with this new OBGYN two times..when I first discovered I was pregnant and then again today. Both times she seemed to be in a rush and was short. I had about a million questions to ask her this morning (and I'm sure the receptionist knew that, as she gave me the very first appointment of the day) but after asking only a few I felt like she could've cared less to take the time to answer them. I was bothered by the fact that it was the nurse who offered far more comfort than the Dr did.
Until then I'm involved in a nightmarish waiting game as I wait for my body to go through the miscarriage process. I feel tired, sluggish and depressed - all common feelings, I'm sure. It's very difficult to put on a 'happy face' for my kids, but that's exactly what I'm doing because I don't want them to feel overly concerned. I'm hoping I start to feel better once my body starts the healing process.
On a lighter note, I received a beautiful arrangement of flowers today from the Powers family; such a kind and thoughtful gesture. I realize that I 'jumped the gun' by informing everyone of my pregnancy before the standard 12 week period, but I've never withheld the news before and I felt that by doing so I would "jinx" things. So much for that! Anyways, we truly appreciate everyone's concern and kind words for us.
My heart feels even heavier today than it did yesterday, but I'm trying to believe that all of this has happened for a reason.
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