Thursday, April 26, 2012

The Dreaded Friday Weigh-In

I used to be obsessed with the scale, weighing in every day.  It wasn't long before I realized that I could weigh myself in the morning & again later that same day & get a different number each time.  So I switched to weighing in twice per week.  That became too discouraging for me though because I felt like the scale wasn't moving in my favor fast enough.  So now I weigh in just once per week - on Friday mornings.
I usually look forward to my Friday morning weigh-in's.  I know that I've worked hard exercising & eating properly in the days leading up to my weigh-in & usually the scale is down by 1-2 lbs which only heightens my self-motivation to keep moving forward on my weight loss journey.
This week is a little different, though.  I'm really not looking forward to my weigh-in tomorrow morning.  Infact, I'm dreading it.
I exercised every day this week, as I do every week but my eating habits weren't as good as they've been lately.  I splurged more than usual, mostly in the evenings.  Limiting my snacks in the evening remains my biggest challenge.  I have to dig deep to find the willpower to bypass the sugary sweets & just snacks in general.  Usually I succeed.  This week...not so much.
I made an apple pie on Sunday night & had a slice of it, along with some ice cream (low calorie ice cream, but ice cream none the less) & fat free whipped cream.  Normally I'd skip the pie & just have a little ice cream.  But, for whatever reason, I felt like I deserved to have the whole dessert & not just half of it.  Not a huge deal.  But then on Tuesday night I had another slice of my pie.  Granted, this time I didn't have it with the ice cream & whipped cream - but even still -- two slices of apple pie in one week simply sets the pattern for bad things (weight wise) for me.  And so last night I had a handful of hershey's chocolate eggs.  I was pretty aggravated with myself.  All day long I had been eating SO well & then, right before bed, I blew it.  I'm angry that I can't seem to find my willpower when I need it the most.
So I'm not anticipating a weight loss this week.  If anything I should probably start preparing myself now for a possible weight gain.  It won't be a huge gain - maybe 1 or 2 lbs - but gaining weight is not part of my challenge.  If the scale does not flash 3 numbers in my favor I know I will be disappointed in myself but, at the same time, I know where I made my mistakes this week.  I just have to dig deeper, and harder, for that willpower.

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